TITLE: Radiant Light of Love NAME: Tatsushi Miyazaki COUNTRY: Japan EMAIL: tatsushimx@yahoo.co.jp WEBPAGE: noneJPGFILE: rlightl.jpg TOPIC: Opposites COPYRIGHT: I SUBMIT TO THE STANDARD RAYTRACING COMPETITION COPYRIGHT. JPGFILE: rlightl.jpg RENDERER USED: Shade 7.5 Basic TOOLS USED: Shade 7.5 Basic Paintgraphic Version 3.0.4 Terragen v0.9 RENDER TIME: 31984 seconds HARDWARE USED: Pentium4 2.40GHz, 500MB RAM IMAGE DESCRIPTION: Sorry for my poor English. For 13 years, I had been in deep depression. I felt an overwhelming power taking control over my life, crushing and destroying my existance, transforming me into a stereotyped common sensed person. I was in the depth of despair. I thought nothing could change my life back to normal. I thought there is no way to make my dreams come real. I felt that I failed my life, that my life was in a waste basket. I tortured myself questioning why this terrible thing was happening to me. I had begun to hear voices interrogating me when there was no one around. Only ultimate power, supreme strength, strong enough to prove that my idea, my methodologies are the greatest of all to every single person on this earth, should break this situation and save me out, I thought. I had become an unpleasant easily irritated person, despirately seeking power in whatever I do...then I met an Amitabha, she believed in me just like an infant believes her mother without single doubt as if she had done so for thousands and thousands of years. By doing so, she taught me that I still have an internal strength within me, that my life is still worthy of living. I felt relieved for the first time in a decade. I began to read books written by Jim Donovan (This is your life, not dress rehearsal.) and by Dale Carnegie (How to stop worrying and start living.). I learned the importance of praising myself. Sometimes at night, I praise myself for anything I can think of. I feel much better, and I realize that even in those dark days, I had been doing something good, somthing truely innovative. I have come to realize that what I am in its essence can never be taken away by anybody, even by the most horrible tyrants. And the essence is so different from other people, that my existance and what I do are innovative by the nature, and there is no need to struggle. Even now, there are overwhelming hardships, but now I do what I can, and rest, I give them all to God. Everything I do in my life have meaning. Its just that I don't understand it when I'm doing it. So I follow what the mighty God tells me to do. Even if I get something unexpected, it's just that I don't understand. I just make my lemonade when I get a lemon. I've finally got peace in my heart. Thank God for guiding me all the way through, someone who never believed you for thirty years. Thank you for sending me an Amitabha. Thank you for all your miracles. May peace fill your life for eternity. DESCRIPTION OF HOW THIS IMAGE WAS CREATED: All modelings were done using Shade 7.5 basic and textures were created with Paintgraphic. I used Terragen for the upperhalf background image generation. Rendering options were method: path tracing global illumination: enabled, path tracing shadow calculation: enabled